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Pondering....

Ah, it's been a while *dusts off webs*. I'm blogging in the dark with my ear phones listening to some old school music. Feeling pretty melodramatic now. Anyhus, I'm really confused. People have been telling me "do what you love or have interest in", "do what pays alot" or even "do what is paying you good money now". And you know what? Whenever people tell me to do what pays alot, I answer them "Money is not the point. If I don't like what I'm doing, it will ruin or affect my outcome". Sure, you need money to survive but I'd rather keep my sanity, thank you very much.

I've reached my limit. I will not let those people influence my decision. I do what I like, and if I regret, I will regret because of MY decision. I have been doing what you people have been telling me to; influencing my decisions. No, not anymore. I'm the type of person that doesn't work well when asked to do something that I'm not passionate about. It will affect the outcome. Really. For the past 3 years, I have been so effin' depressed that my body just decided to mess up and organs are starting to shrink. Literally. I decided to confront my parents because I couldn't take it anymore. They finally realized and stopped pushing me. But once the others knew about it, I felt abandoned. Rumors started spreading. From then on, I could see their true colors and it all made sense. I was in a very hypocritical circle of fake friends. Sigh, why are we living in such a materialistic and hypocritical and egotistical world.

I'd rather starve and suffer doing something I enjoy or love, than doing something that just makes me sick. You're better off doing what you love. When you are in a happier, you're more likely to suceed. Going to a job that makes money, but is doing something that you rather not do, isn't gonna help you. You want a job that makes you want to leave the house and start your day off with working. Not a job that will make you wanna stay in bed because you hate your job and the people there.

The expression is actually true. You do what you love, you will start to succeed. When you start to succeed, you start to climb the corporate ladder. Once you start climbing that ladder, the money will start rolling. If you start off with some horrible job, your gonna tell yourself "whats the point" and slack off.

If what you love to do isn't very profitable, then the best thing to do is to have a job that provides you with enough income to do what you love on your off time. That way you're working for your leisure time. In the end, you have to listen to your heart and make your own decisions. Fulfill life's purpose.

**Joanna**

Photoshoot!

Yay~ I went to All About Love today to try on some gowns for the photoshoot. Ong, one of my bridesmaid was there too because her friend had an interview there. Anyway, I get to choose 4 gowns for the photoshoot. Gonna go for my trial make up and hair on 5th May and the photoshoot will be on 10th May. Excited :D and also nervous at the same time :O. Wow, May 10th photoshoot. After that, May 18th-21st another photoshoot at Taiwan. @@;; Money money money money! **Joanna**

My road trip to Sandakan

Lol, it's actually my second road trip. My first was when I was around 3? Heck, how would I remember how it went. So, this is my official 1st time road trip to Sandakan. Hahaha. Anyway, the purpose of the trip was to visit Jack's gramma. Only Jack and myself went to Sandakan by car. He drove the Hilux. From KK to Sandakan, the trip took about 6 and a half hours. It was bumpy as hell. I could literally feel my brain hitting against the wall of my skull. I wouldn't say it wasn't a fun trip. It was actually not that bad, aside the bumpy road and my bladder almost bursting into pieces. After passing Ranau, we missed a junction and went the wrong way! Hahaha~ After making calls, we were back on track. I was so bored in the car, I stared at all the trees surrounding the area and look at possible forms/shapes they look like. Lawl~ Upon arriving Sandakan, we had another problem - the location of the hotel! We booked a room at Tyng Garden. Took us around 45 minutes to find that place. Jack's mum gave a different direction, and my mum gave a different direction. After circling the area for too many times, Jack decided to call his aunt in Sandakan. She led us to the hotel. Thank God she lived nearby. After checking in and got all cleaned up, Jack's cousin called and asked us out for a drink. Meh, we were too tired to go out so we rejected. We visited his gramma the next day. I feel a whole lot of emotions when I saw her. Sigh~ Reminds me of my great-gramma. After visiting his gramma, we head out hunting for brekkie and also this shop called '7 Heaven'. It's an ice-cream parlor in Sandakan. We had no friggin' idea where that place is, so we used google map to lead us there. Hahaha~~ If you're an ice-cream lover, then you'll love this place. The price is reasonable and they also have other sweets like frozen yogurt and cakes. They also serve lunch and dinner. Operating hours are from 12pm-6pm and 6pm-12am. After nomming down our ice-cream, we started our ride back to KK. Started at 1.30pm and reached home at 8pm... Here are some pictures.
The thick fog.

Could hardly see a thing.


The crocodile that greeted us. I get the giggles everytime Jack passed by this statue.


Having my dinner while going online.


7 heaven.



The interior.


Green tea+Double Chocolate Rm6



Me with my frozen yogurt.


**Joanna**